Who am I ? Vol. 2

Unfortunately, I tuned incredibly negative person, apparently due to their own world view, which is abnormally pessimistic .. Each of us has seen a lot of bad, no one has easy life . For me lack of recognition and meaning in life, someone is missing millions to buy a custom island but that does not suffer less than you .. some have water and die of dehydration, it should be a real problem. But really all these problems takes differently  .Someone lost foot and smiles at how someone can break his hand and  want to die. The problem is not possible to measure the same for everybody .Recently I wanted to solve my problems differently. I already rejected as this would be complicated and I do not have and this step is enough clearance.


I had one friend who knows good many years and we have many similarities and therefore can only understand ... he was going to go to Ukraine to fight the pro-Russian party. A friend of mine is already there but I can not contact him or is likely to ease the hurt may be dead. I did not understand and I was already seriously I decided to join him as my life sucks but I'm not so weak that I committed suicide rather sacrifice their lives for somehow a good thing that makes sense, at least try to fight for a better world against the ever more powerful evil I can not look at what was going on there being decided over the world by the value of everything although it does not appear. I can not look at people who are fighting a belief that is so like my and often die. I can not watch the foundations of hands and lament ... so war is hell but I'll be happy when the world  possibly death can finally see sense I do not see another way. I paramilitary training so there is not lost in silent activities ... I have experience with shooting tactics, etc. I'm still after main course a lot of things and the life which I lose or change a family ... I am not tell, only one friend who dissuade me from that asserts that I am young and I have a deal with disco women booze school career and I have a family to take .But my lifetime journey is suffering much joy I did not enjoy or do not enjoy. I feel that I have a mission so that I have used ... I made up a lot of mistakes in life but I did not harm people but for me, I constantly felt wronged from childhood I felt that here slightly. I was evacuated from the team I had friends girlfriends in the family I have always been downgraded nephew, grandson. Cousins ​​me literally exclude from their team. I always was looking for a place but I do not have any here. As a child nobody wanted to play with me everyone is of me laughed dug into me. My whole childhood my youth all the fear that I was experiencing all led to my thinking. My soul is destroyed irreversibly I can not change and participate in society. Everywhere there are too many evil ... There are also light pages for example I have a nephew that I would like to see when you will grow out of it and so will the vapor know what I miss more than I do them. If I leave it will most likely be over. I would not take even a document that has been identified to my family, I did not do unnecessary problems. I would change the look and figured as missing.

I had a plan but its implementation has been complicated. There is a problem that friend changed his mind and has moved to Russia where he lives and now .Problem was also my poor Russian. I even met the one girl that I started to change and she gave me a chance in life. Never leave her and she will until I have a reason to die for anything other than for it. But I also noticed that even the Russian side are not fighting so wonderful people. They are often the only people an escape from the problems being jailed etc. . Finally, I said that this is not my fight, preferring to sacrifice their lives for something their own and to have another option when not. Why should I get after I muzzle for what the other's military conflicts rich? Let the slew of Ukraine is not the right choice. Rather, I began to look around and I found that I can be helpful here as well .....